what is normal? the endless pursuit for happiness? when the barrell is in your mouth but you dont have the bullets? a life of drugs? a life of losing loves? a disfunctional youth? when you had the world in your pocket? the inevitable let downs of life that you tell yourself wont happen? a fight for your own destiny against the world? the overflowing emptyness? an ongoing lifestyle surrounded by drugs and temptations, when all you want is to be free of the little devil on your shoulder? free of the struggle? free from life? will i change my will for living? will i change my lifes direction? or is any of this worth it? with every passing day im becoming more and more the person i am trying so hard not to be. Its hard to get up in the morning if you cant find a good reason to get up. i know i have problems, but not ones the legal system can fix. you say it is good that i work so much but when i have to reschedule frequently you think im jerkin you around. the only way ive made it so far in probation is because i effect peoples lives. its hard to wake up in the morning if you cant find a reason.

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10 months, 1 week ago by Rebekah P.